Had my first day at work yesterday, never thought it was going to be easy and it was very much hard work. It wasn’t even on a level that I was expecting but that seems to be the theme for this year and I suppose is always going to be theme. It isn’t what you are expecting that knocks for you for six but the unknown, the unseen, the side swipe that does the job. However it is about learning to deal with that and be able to cope with that as no matter what you do you are never going to be able to remove that element in life.
No this isn’t a blog about money. For a while I have been listening to motivational speeches pretty much every day, they registered more some days than they do others but that is to be expected. Yeah they can be quite clichéd however they help and that is what matters. There is a few things that stick in my head and one of them is about every decision you matters, it might not feel like it but it still matters. You are either now or the future putting the bank of you into credit or debit and which one do you want to be in? Yes it might not feel like going that extra kilometre in that walk really matters or makes a difference but it is all adding up the credit in the bank of you.
I enjoy and have always enjoyed feeling like I have had a weekend, that I have done something with the days. Even with not working for the past few months I still have that sense of a week and a weekend so like to get to a Sunday evening and feel like I have had a weekend. Variety is a big key I feel as breaks the days up and that more has been accomplished.
On the 2nd of November I sent myself the challenge to blog every single day and guess what I managed it! One can’t believe that we are at the end of November and tomorrow is the 1st of December. Would love to say where has this year gone however feel very much like I have lived every single day and while that could be a positive thing it isn’t in this case. But that is by the by now. The second thing is that I have some how managed to take pictures and find something to say for 30 days!
After many months of waiting it is a bit strange to now have had my first psychology appointment, it has been about getting to this point but what now?
Today is the day that I have my first psychology appointment and my emotions, thoughts, feelings are all over the place with it. Feels like it has been a long wait for this day so doesn’t really seem real that today is the day.
Had dip in my mood yesterday evening ; it can be hard sometimes not to start thinking/ worrying/ stressing about stuff coming up in the near future and in the more distant future. Of course it doesn’t do any good and no one knows what is going to happen so for most of it it is completely out of anyone’s control. Still hard to stop the thoughts though and once there is one negative thought that opens the door for a lot more to start.