Today is the day that I have my first psychology appointment and my emotions, thoughts, feelings are all over the place with it. Feels like it has been a long wait for this day so doesn’t really seem real that today is the day.
If had gone to write this blog other the past few days it would have had a very different tone to it as have been in a fairly poor headspace. Today however I am in an improved mind space and feeling a lot more positive about everything so the blog will hopefully be a lot more reflective about the past few days!
The photos are from a walk that I did yesterday down at Loch Ard and not to the theme of the blog but just to break it up a bit.
So was thinking that haven’t blogged in a while with anything to do with my mental health and what is going on at the moment. Quite a few things happened over the past week or so, I suppose also the past few months there has been subtle changes ( or so people keep telling me ) but the past week and weeks to come it is a lot more noticeable.
Since being signed off work it is very easy to get fixated on work and all the questions and decisions going round in my head to do with that. What I need to also remember that while I am not at work it opens up opportunities that I wouldn’t have got if I had been at work. One of those is getting the chance to see areas of Scotland that I haven’t been to before.
Be born, go to nursery, go to primary school, go to secondary school, go to uni, go to job, go to next job and next job and next job and then ……………………………………………………………..
“Rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life.”
I feel over the past few months that I have reached rock bottom and then something else would happen and I would feel worse. It was heart wrenching and soul destroying, just felt like how much more do I have to deal with for this to be my worse. I almost just wanted it to get the worst that it could so then I knew that I have nowhere else to keep going down to that when I did go low again that I knew where that was, that I had experience of it and coming back. That everything wasn’t so new! Continue reading “Baseline”
Sleep is something that is quite often affected by depression and actually anything to do with your mental health and your physical health to that matter as well. It also plays a huge factor in the journey to getting better again. Lack of sleep affects everything.